PDS*2

So here it is my PDS post. Finally decided to post this despite knowing that i have tonnes of assignments to do. I'm just feeling motivated to do so, after seeing so many seniors posted about it, ahh, dun wanna lost the feeling i'm feeling right now. It took me 2 semesters of hard work to feel it ok. HAHHAHAH.
Hmm, gonna blog about it starting from the beginning till the end, so if you're not patient enough to read, just scroll through the pictures ok? It's gonna be long, i warn you first, i'm recording my feeling from the first till the end. :p

In case if you don't know, i was being selected as the Singer Head. I've/ We've been preparing for dayao like around 2 sem? A row of meetings, singers audition, mini concert, song selection, dayao camp, workshop, singer selection round 2, singer audition, band practice, singer test all the way until dayao. It's really tiring, no joke, damn stressful, i'm a person who is used to live under stress, ( yes, i am, i have a mutual relationship with stress, we benefit each other. zzz. ) *not being sarcastic seriously* but this time seriously no joke, but it also happens because i got all things crashing together. True la, my bad, nobody asked me to be such a kepochi and join so many stuffs. :(((

So all the burdens are on my shoulder since the day i agreed to accept this post, and it's worse because all of us wanted to make it back to the DTC stage, after being sickly traumatized by PDS last year. Ok, so all of us hold on this and never let it go even we faced so many hardships, from all aspects, management, skills, and relationships. I'm sorry that i'm a very stubborn person and i believed that i have given you all quite a hard time, but trust me, it wasn't done on purpose, i have my own reasons being stubborn. D: and i really wanna thank Yaslyn and Yu Hong for bearing with my bad temper, and though we had some quarrels but at last we were together and fight through the way. Thank you seniors esp Lek Meng, Chun Chyn, and Mi Zheng for always being supportive, giving me proper suggestions and advices, and lastly being brother enough to be my emotional trash bin. Thank you for spending time listening to my crap, i really need somewhere to release all my tension.

Talking about PDS, fyi, it means Post-Dayao Syndrome. in case if you got idea what it is.

It was very different. I felt really glad and relieved the show was a great success but PDS lasted for like less than 2 days?  First day, i was feeling quite empty and was still swimming through the positive feedbacks and memories we had. But the second day, my PDS ended, because it's time for post-mortem, instead of feeling reluctant, i feel more stressful of what i have not done well. Then, i adapted myself to negative comments and details of flaws of the entire performance i open-mindedly accepted the critiques from the seniors. Though still feeling stress about it aftermath, but feeling better after listening to sincere comments, i think i also learn a lot from that.

Seeing juniors still suffering from PDS, their passion and sense of belonging really touched me. I really treasure the moments spent with them; crazy supper, and getting out of the car and shake the butts at the traffic light in the middle of the road? Yes, we did this. xD "Once an Ark-Cloverian, forever an Ark-Cloverian." Heard that Yaslyn named this band after the Noah's Ark, she prayed that she's capable enough to hold them tgt, and yes, Yaslyn, you did that. It was a very amazing band. Juniors are all crazy and mentally attached to the band, and the friendship that is rooted among us shall never fade.

Ok, pichas time ! before i continue mumbling, :p

 ze girls.

 sapo Xin Yi ♥

 Ark-Cloverians ! ♥ hiao enough, and Andrew yoru butt very hiao hor.

 ze Chinese Traditional Dance gang ♥; Kuang Horng, me, Joan, and Jacky. 

Erm, sorry Zhi Yang, i got no idea why your hair is like that xD 

He, the perfect-pitcher. D;

with Jia Quan, stay sweeetttt with Jac. ♥ oh no, it's gonna go viral. hahhaha

*i look petite here, i slimmed own a lot, oops. :p

 ♥

 They said junior band ONLY. aiya, but who cares ? i'm junior what. xD

 I was just too hungry at the backstage.

 ♥ that moment.

 28th PBCUM gang ! Thanks for coming to support, finally, it's a complete one. :)

 with Foong Wah ♥ Thank you for helping me with my hairdo at the last min. :')

 Jillian, super cool drummer !

with le girls ! ♥

from the left: Zi Qi, Yaslyn, Yao Zhi, me, Kai Shin, Mei Zi, Violette, Khe Sin, and Jillian.

 ♥ my roomie ! Thank you Kimberly for everything :) ♥♥♥

with Sunday Girls, i just don't know why Soh Chun Chyn wanna photobomb. 

soh dek ma????? xD

 with Cheng Hooi, le dayao president. fuiyooohhhh

 muh kai pa, Kuang Horng la.

 Raee !!! always the crazy one, bluffed me that he was a Chi-Thai mix for 2 years. zzz

 Yaslyn, the music director a.k.a. the ironic girl. ♥

 oh with Dancer head, Yern Yee, good job, the dance moves were cool ! can i be a dancer next year ? :p

 my ootd ! ♥ loving the Maroon Red Bustier dress so much, just bought it 2 days before dayao.

 with Jared, partner of the day. Glad that i had a chance to duet with you. and stay sweeeet with your girl !♥

 with muh ex-bandmate ! Band Y ! with medic seniors, who went to Klang and cant join us this year :((

from left: Sher Lin, Leong Hooi, Joan, me, Xin Ni, Sue Sien, Moh Theng, Shun Herng.

 with Karen ! the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! ♥

Caryn, the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! ♥

with Jason, my "lao-sai" mate. ( pronounce it in Indon-slang cantonese, hahah ) 

 with Chu Ting, cute emcee. 

 with Jovian. eh macam ok worh this pic. xD

with my brother, Soh Chun Chyn ! ♥ He's gonna kill me for the love, hahah. ok, i got nothing with him.

anybody who is interested in him cn get his number from me. Damn yeng le. xDDD

can't get enough of Ark Clover ahhhhh.

our cover photo. Teehee. ♥♥
from the left: Luke, Pei Ling, Andrew( carrot milk babies ), Moh Theng, me, Hui San, Lek Meng, Jun Giap, Yaslyn, Song Han, Shi Hao, Jared, Mark Koh, Ke Sin( november babies ), Rou Jing and Ding Hang.

♥

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Also thanks to Dayao, i had the chance to do more live band performance and each of the opportunity gained me precious experience. I can see myself growing through each performing experience and of course through dayao. I'm a tougher and a stronger person now, all the tears have been shed worth it. Thank you everyone who came and supported me. I really appreciate your effort. :) and not forgeting to thank the crews behind the scene, multech and scenography dept have done very good job ! and thank you to Risyn ,Michelle and Kenny for making sure the programme flow runs smooth, Jinq Wen and Chun Wei for getting so many sponsors and thank you Yin Han for being so efficient at administrating, glad that i have known all of you. Sorry that could not write down your name one by one, but you know i thank you deep down from the heart. :)

Juniors, jia you for dayao 2015!

DAYAO ROCKS. SEE YOU 2015. ♥

sensei? years of life counting down?

Had not written anything since i don't know when, and all recent updates seems like all homesick kinda posts, so being reminded that i went to consult a Chinese sensei when i was back to home last CNY break. If you do follow my instagram or facebook, you'll know that i actually had food poisoning when i was in Penang, working trip after last term's final. Then, i had medicine but it does not recover fully 100%, because i have a bad stomach for quite sometime. Irregular time of sleep, time of meal, i don't even eat regularly, *not that i wanna make myself sick, but sometimes i cn forget about my meals when i gt so busy!* and all that contributed to bloated stomach, it's always bloated and sometimes i've got no appetite and would even throw out after eating. So i went up to the sensei and consulted him, at first he listened to my pulse, and he told me straight after a min, telling me that my bad stomach is caused irregular heartbeat, and irregular heartbeat is there because of extreme fatigue and over tiredness of my body. It's showing a red alarm, and if i continue to keep myself this busy for another 5 years max, i will have heart problem, seriously. I was so worried at first, and my parents keep themselves updated at my body condition every day. But still, when i'm back again, all kinds of fussy matters kept me so busy that i  got no time to think about it and slowly back to that hectic life. However and whatever, i will still need to maintain this at least until the end of year 2, but recently i've been feeling so tired, eventhough i have sleep enough, but i feel like i have not slept for years. With so many problems happening recently, i hope that i'm able to cope physically, and if i couldn't, i'll just have to make a choice and leave. I'm helpless in this, but if one day i ever leave, you know why. I struggled for quite sometime, whether i should post this, as this is quite personal, but i decided to post it here in my little corner.. I'm writing this not to gain sympathy but i realize life's too short to wake up with regrets, if, if one day i could not bid my farewell to everybody..

很委屈

年十四，我又离家了。
就这样离开了，我那温暖的床。
几个小时的车程，路上也没睡好，司机连播了2个小时的淡米尔文歌，我都快疯了。（语言是个很大的障碍）
姐姐来车站载我，我也等了将近一小时，然后再去吃午餐。
好吧，午餐好吃，等也算了。

匆匆忙忙回到宿舍房间，午觉也没得睡，冲了凉就赶快到公司去。
下午还需要工作，差不多3 星期都没工作，严格来说，我天天工作的日子是差了整2个月吧！整个状态都好差，好生疏，老毛病又重犯，整个人都没心情。
遇到及差又不负责任的主办单位，更是让人爆血管，无端端延迟了我的时间表。
回到了公司，差不多就9pm了， 晚餐没吃，想着回到房间再随便吃就好了。想着省钱，又决定搭shuttle bus. 最近shuttle bus总是迟到，我知道，是为了要载放工的外劳，但同时就害我要miss rapid bus, 又不能怪他们，因为他们其实也很可怜。
结果，去到了kelana jaya，再搭lrt回lrt uni。 说什么塞车，T632会迟到，但我没带防狼器，又怕遇到上次的事情也不敢走回去，只好坐着等。等了45分钟，巴士才出现，但整条路是完全没塞车，我不知道到底他们使用什么来判断说很塞车，此时此刻，我很想大骂“无脑！”。等45分钟，我胃痛又发作，看着包包里还有两包饼，硬啃了12片饼干，附近也没有饮料卖，干增增赢吞下去。然后，还要走个10分钟才回到宿舍，结果我9pm回家，11pm+才回到家。路程其实只有短短4km,我真的很生气，很委屈。
到最后，为了省钱，费了两个小时，饿着肚子，才回到家。
我真的觉得很生气又很委屈。

或许是这几个礼拜在家被宠惯了，以前根本不把这样的事当作委屈，难受就把气往肚里吞，但我现在就是很。难。受。很。委。屈。

浪子的心声

收来收去，怎么都收不好
不是要带的太多，而是要带的太重

收来收去，怎么都收不好
不是我手脚太慢，而是我就不想走

简简单单
清清淡淡
懒懒散散
轻轻松松
快快乐乐



哎，我就是舍不得。。。

 

离家的路，

好长。。好远。。。

#ootd: CNY 2014

CNY? Wheeeee.. time to dress up !
Not so much to post on CNY, coz mine are the typical ones: Movie session is daily routine for my family.
So, i had 6 movies for CNY. Nailed it ! that is like my whole year quota for movies...
Quite a short post, barely about my #ootd  !

Theme for this year's CNY was neon x soft metal. I wanted to be different compared to past years and started to adore the way Jane Chuck and Ashley dress, i like how they have the thoughts of "You are what you dress". Dressing up can be fun, it can an art as well, to bring out of your personality. I'm slowly changing my way of dressing to something more rock, metal and edgy. Trying to give people the impression of me being tougher. I'm no longer an all day lacey-fancy girl :D

Chor Yat:

 Neon yellow top + flowery tight skirt from Kitschen+ black envelope bag.

Chor Yi:

Neon green cropped top + leopard printed see through maxi (both from Kitschen)

+black envelope bag + Carlorino loafers

Chor Sam: I was supposed to join my gang for a picnic, but i was sick. Darrrrnnnn, whole day trapped at home.:(( *cry cry*

Chor Sei: With my youthful sister, Joanne. Believe it or not, she's a mother to a 3 year old kid. *shocked face* We coincidentally bought same series of clothes for new year. That kind of Chu sisters spirit. Both of us in matching black x white x neon pink. 

alright, that's all.
hehe, i know it's a damn lazy post.
:DD
nvm lah, next time i write more,
okayh??
xoxo,
kbyethx,
see you soon.

#ootd #neon #softmetal #flowery #tightskirt #black #white #clutch #envelopebag #loafers #rocker #chic #cny #outfit


i know i know, some people have negative comments to my way of dressing..But, i would like to let you know that i...

"I've never expected you to understand my taste and my style, because i don't dress to impress you. I dress for myself"

备。战。状。态。

又回到了备战状态。

游子在外漂浮了4个月，终于回到家了。即便短短的这几天都没有在家做到些什么温习，to-do-list只增无减，但仍然是满足的。回到家里，睡醒就吃，吃饱就睡，完全是个与世隔绝的大懒虫。平时连休息都没有时间，即使是假日或周末，都在工作，都在忙永远都忙不完的学生活动。从新年到现在，一整年，在家呆着的时间还少于一个月，甚至是sem break，我都在intern, training, camp。。说真的，我好像常年都在忙碌的状态，所谓休息就是去逛个街，好久都没有睡到自然醒了。最近忙校园选举，真的身体身心的波动都很大，大喜大落后我并没有回到家，没有家人的依偎，只是继续的忙工作和课业。虽说，哥哥姐姐都在吉隆坡，但毕竟回到家的感觉，还是不一样的。这几天，吃着妈妈煮的菜，睡着温暖的床，才总算真的有休息了。虽然有很努力想要早起，但每一天都会自动关掉闹钟然后继续睡，我想也是身体太久没休息了吧。每天睡到自然醒，把妈妈的每一道菜吃个清光，看着astro的连续剧，让爸爸帮这个体弱的女儿作“原子点”，把该烦的都丢弃一旁不顾，反正就是在家晃来晃去，吃饱了就继续闹着妈妈多弄些甜品，硬嚷着说饿，然后就看着妈妈傻笑，让妈妈摸摸头亲一下。虽然很累，却心甘情愿的为孩子忙。妈妈嘴里一直说，“以后有放假就要多回来。”我才发现，我真的累了，真的想家了。

但，很快的，5天后又回到了只有书桌，床和衣橱的宿舍。我又回到了备战状态。虽然好像还没休息够，但我想我这个游子还是休息休息就好，不然，当我习惯了家的温暖，我就会想靠岸了。。

os: “加油吧！”

helpless blog wtfbbq

Couldn't fall asleep in the midnight, thanks to the determined father on trying to make a cup of good luwak coffee. ._.
It is Christmas today, which tells me enough that this year is coming to an end too. I tried to recall back what have i done in this year, and what have i blogged about. It seems quite empty especially since the starting of the new sem. I used to have lots of feelings and thinking to be jotted down, but i kept procrastinating. Things and workloads that will never come to an end, kept my to-blog-stories-list piling up high, and slowly i forgot what i wanted to write about. I felt so regretful and upset that my feelings and emotions at that moments were not being jotted down, i lost a piece of the puzzle of my emotions. Again, as i've promised to myself, i need to blog more often, and yt i failed to do so AGAIN. Not wanting to let the blog die, but i'm like so helpless to watch it die. And it feels so extremely bad to watch all my supposed-to-have-blogged-sincere-words gone.

I could only SIGH now.

doing some last possible resuscitation to the bloggie.
poor blog.