我是猫山王

之前闹得满城风雨的电子版文凭总算告一段落。
校方终于收回成命，电子版照用；唯纸版文凭会无收费随特别申请提供。
我不会说那是我的功劳，只是感谢自己没有放弃。
谢谢支持的朋友们，谢谢新青年、学阵、学生会的用心。

其实今晚想说的重点不是这个，只是连续被人抹黑几次，我心情不好。我一般都不爱说人是非，尤其是上大学以后；因为我相信“懂你的人又何必多说，不懂你的人又何必多说”。向来对很多的是是非非，我也只和身边几个好兄弟诉苦，\我本身很懒得去澄清一切，你爱怎想怎讲我才不管。但，有时候，当你太无所谓的时候，人家就会爬上你的头，哭得稀里哗啦，继续摸黑我。同样，“懂你的人又何必多说，不懂你的人又何必多说”，只是心中仍有不甘。看着那些小人的小动作，除了一直臭骂“贱人就是矫情”，我也不懂还要多说什么。

是，再说你！欢迎你对号入座! 

如果说拿一样水果来形容我，我会说是榴莲。榴莲的刺是刺手的、不讨喜的。但，扒开榴莲壳后，一包一包金黄色的果肉却是让人垂涎的，当然也有人会觉得臭气冲天。榴莲是香是臭，再于你怎么去欣赏。不过一点，不管你喜欢不喜欢，就算你是站在一个远距离，你还是会闻到我的气味。

顺道附上学长的旧著，觉得有点意思：

http://kwongliang.blogspot.com/2006/01/blog-post_113781473300045641.html

进？退？

有人问，
“你的文告能令校方收回成命吗？”

我说，
“其实我也没有绝对把握，我的文告能带来什么影响。但，革命从来都不是一朝一夕的，不是个三两天就能反清复明。孙中山辛亥革命十次起义，第十一次革命才成功，他说了多少遍“革命尚未成功，同志仍须努力”才换来的成功呢？倘若他一开始就抱着犹豫与退缩的心态，今天也不会有今天的中国，更不会有人认识谁是孙中山。如果今天已经被欺压到胸口还抱着“算了，还是别惹事的心态”那么注定你毕业以后的日子、甚至是你的人生都只会有退缩的表现。人往往贪生怕死，少一事不如多一事；被欺压时只要能解决，即使牺牲自己的权益也无所谓。这不是处事圆滑，不代表你思想成熟，只说明了你人生永远的悲剧。如果到了这种地步也要哑忍的话，这叫懦弱。小事忍，大事忍，到最后你会惊觉你失去的不只是你的权益，连你最基本的自我保护本能也丧失了。革命，没有绝对的把握，但如果不坚持，你永远不知道你距离成功有多远，也许十步，也许一步。如果我们选择前进，也许学生力量真的可以带来改变；相反的，如果我们选择退缩，我们肯定不能做出任何改变。或许你会问我是否曾经犹豫，有！我可以大声告诉你，我犹豫过。但只要是对的，我觉得我们没有退缩的理由。不管今天有没有成功，但至少我尽力了，我对得起天地良心。任何事情都一样，纸本文凭也一样。决不退缩，还我纸本文凭。”

E-scroll? 电子版文凭？

也许看了这篇announcement大家应该清楚发生什么事了吧。*哎*

马来西亚首屈一指的政府大学，马来亚大学再爆惊人消息。从2014年7月1 日起，将正式采用“电子版毕业文凭政策”。马大将不会印刷纸本文凭给予学生，而只会提供电子版文凭给学生自行印刷，如果学生仍然想要索取纸本文凭，学生必须另外缴付RM50 的手续费，而国际学生必须缴付RM70。如果意外遗失了正版文凭，马大也表示不会再补发文凭。马大新青年在这里强烈抗议马大的无理政策，原因基于以下几点：

（一） 学校藐视学术象征—文凭。
文凭乃是必要的学术象征， 是学生寒窗苦读多年的认同与证明，亦是父母栽培多年的期望。其中象征的是学术和大学精神。如今为了节省开销却无理地把纸文凭省略，替换成电子文凭， 剥削学生权益。

（二） 学校变卖文凭，将文凭代价而沽
学校一而再盲目追求节省开销政策，从合并学院到变卖文凭，不断追求所谓的经济效益，却一再忽略学习的最终目的与文凭赋予的精神价值。校长换了，校风却未换；盲目削减开销、继续剥削学生福利的戏码继续上演。凡是有宾客到访，便大事铺张，但却典当学生的福利。毕业文凭本应是理所当然，现在却向学生征收RM50手续费？若是这样，那和“卖文凭”到底有什么分别？

（三） 学校的环保理由不成立
为响应环保，马大率先推出电子版文凭。但令人惊骇的是，所有马大生都知道从2013/2014第一学年开始，所有的学生将获得马大免费派送的塑料袋，而此“塑料袋”是考试通行证，没有就不能入场。这就能看出马大处理事务不分轻重，手法不成熟，仅在为了保护切身利益时才把条例强加在学生身上。

（四） 学校不再补发丢失文凭，不近人情
学生不小心丢失了文凭或遭逢意外中，乃人之常情，补发文凭也是理所当然。但，马大竟然采取强硬手法，铁腕地永不补发文凭。相反，身为顶尖大学的英国剑桥大学，若学生丢失文凭，要求再补发则被罚款15英镑。成天把“向外国学习”挂在嘴边的马大，却没有外国大学更有人情味。

此政策今天在面子书掀起一片挞伐声，学生极度不满。其实从2012年起，马大毕业生可以上网下载电子文凭。同时提供纸文凭与电子文凭的方针是可取的，但如果使用电子版取而代之，此举是藐视学术象征。马大新青年在这里要校方好好审视纸本文凭的意义，还学生福利，恢复纸本文凭，并调整补发文凭的政策。如果校方未能作出明智抉择，应把权力赋还给学生，让学生作主。恢复学生会。


不错，这篇文告是我写的。
新闻连接：
http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/265349
http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/265341
http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/265353

就是不能明白为什么马大就是不能成熟一点。
#BolehLand #UMBoleh #EScroll #WeAreAllSkrolUM

spoonfeed or self-learn ?

So, I try to recap what have I studied for the semester 2 of my year 2. I did not have time to update at the early sem and also wrap up for last semester’s on time yet, and now still busy with final week submission, but I couldn’t stop myself from writing this. Courses I’m taking this sem are Introduction to Sociology, Introduction to Psychology, Media and Politics, Visual Anthropology, Contemporary Social Thoughts and Quantitative Data Analysis. So the first 3 are those which I think I can still manage and interested with, but the latter 3 are those I’m really so terrified with. I have to admit I was not a good student for this whole semester, I was too overfilled with activities, work and my health condition isn’t getting any better. And there's only one thing i can say i'm just a typical kind of student. I'm used to spoonfed education ever since we're all young beanies, so it's really hard for me to go through non-spoonfed and all self-digged-information studies. I would say NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. and i'm a notes kind of student, i can't study without proper notes. So, please give me notes and i will score.

I know this sounds really bad and lazy, but it's true, i like the idea of the latter method, but i'm just not brought up in such education system. And it kills if you're expecting me to score an 'A' with that kind of teaching method and in the situation that we're so overloaded with activities. Yes, some would say studies should be a student's priority; it's yours but not mine. I just wanted to learn instead of doing for the sake of doing it. So, please continue to spoonfeed me, i got so irritated with the helpless syllabus, where everyone in the class told you, this method is not working and you still go on with it and tell us you got no choice.

BLLLLLLAHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Mother's Day 2014 + Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory

Yes, im writing again, hoho. Am feeling so inspired to write whenever i'm home. Home is a good place to write :p *home is a noble/good place to inculcate good bloggers, teehee* This year i made it back to home to celebrate Mother's Day, finally. Previously, I was too busy with my work and activities, that i missed out almost all important events with family :( Sowiiieeee, Papa, Mama, I'll try my best to come back as frequent as i could. Back to the topic, let's see how i celebrated Mother's Day !

It was actually a very ordinary day with daily routine, woke up and did my assignments for awhile then went out for lunch and to buy movie tickets *a MUST routine for occasions/events* Then we went back and nap for awhile....ikr, i made it sounded boring*the Chu family is very used to take afternoon nap :p* Before going out again, i sneaked out to buy flowers for my mum while she was taking her bath. But too bad, the flower was not ready yt, i was told to come again in awhile more. So by the time we went out, le father used another route to drive to the destination, and my mother was like screaming literally..blahhh, but then she was so overwhelmed when i handled her the lil bouquet of flowers ♥♥ *this might sound really bad, but erm, we weren't educated to be romantic..and flowers...hmm.. they're too romantic xD* however, it feels really good when you see the beautiful smile hanging on her face. And you can actually wrap up a conclusion: "all girls love flowers." Still remember the last time she received a flower from me, was 11 years ago. *shame on me* That was during the 25th anniversary with my papa, and now the 36th anniversary.. Then we had some high-tea session at Secret Recipe before we head for movies. Below are some pictures to share :)

oh so sweet. ♥♥

oh bulb! :/ btw, my hand look so long here.

that bouquet of carnations. 

haha, just ngeh ngeh wanna show my photography skills.

macam improve liao. *everybody knows my photography skills sucks.*

Wokayh, let's get into second chapter. As you can see at the title, " Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory". What was that about? it's more intellectual kind but very interesting to know. And if you wanna know more, click here. I was suddenly very inspired to talk about this after i watched this movie. 

I can tell you it's a very good movie to learn Freudian's Psychoanalytic Theory. So to make it simple, i will explain briefly about this theory. This theory was introduced by Sigmund Freud, and he actually laid out that "personality development underlies the consciousness level". And a few simple things, there are 3 identities ( ID, EGO and SUPEREGO ) that lies among your 3 consciousness level. ( conscious, pre-conscious, and unconscious ) 

In short, ID is buried deep down below your consciousness level, ( unconscious ) and EGO appears at a very conscious state. ID was operated by pleasure principle while EGO was operated by rationality. This is also where conflicts will occur. But, as we can see, we have no strong awareness about the existence of ID because it is buried deep down in the sub-conscious mind. Therefore, in this movie, we can see that Dave ( the main character ) he tried to be rational when he realized that he made mistakes (which he is conscious atm) and he couldn't control himself when the sub-conscious mind was controlling over him and ID took over his SUPEREGO identity ( which was to balance out between ID and EGO ). So, we often see people having conflicts between this. :p 

Just something to share, because this movie explains it so clearly that Dave became a demon without himself realizing about it until the last second. And when he is at the pre-conscious state, he thinks he's wrong, and he punishes himself by slapping belt hard to his body. Some might say he's at a conscious state instead of pre-conscious because pain makes him realize. But the main argument here is that he doesn't even realize that the demon lives in him, which is the ID that lies under his unconscious mind, when he thought is the bad guy(who had died earlier on, and Dave wasn't aware about this) who did all the murders. Having this ID that lives in the unconscious mind is usually caused by childhood trauma, and which exactly it was the trauma that has triggered him after he lived his years of life peacefully. (peacefully, i would say so, because he did no violence to others after this trauma, besides himself, but of course, he is psychologically stressed and burdened) That extreme fear is what that has haunted him for years. 

Well, maybe i sound confusing, basically just sharing what i know, just watch the movie and you'll understand what i'm saying. :)

Well, maybe i'm wrong. Correct me then if i am. I'm always ready to learn. :)

Lastly, selfie of course ! xD

                                                            Side Holland double braid. ♥♥
                                          If you see carefully, you'll see there's a double braid...
                                                                and dark circles. T.T
                                                #doublebraid #sidebraid #hollandbraid #hotd

                                          ootd. Ignore my face, the lighting in the room was bad. 
                                                        Lacey turquoise blue mini dress with belt.
                                          #ootd #lace #turquoiseblue #minidress #girlsbeinggirls



                                      and Happy Mother's Day !! ♥♥

Kbyethx. See you soon. 

HOPEFULLY.

PDS*2

So here it is my PDS post. Finally decided to post this despite knowing that i have tonnes of assignments to do. I'm just feeling motivated to do so, after seeing so many seniors posted about it, ahh, dun wanna lost the feeling i'm feeling right now. It took me 2 semesters of hard work to feel it ok. HAHHAHAH.
Hmm, gonna blog about it starting from the beginning till the end, so if you're not patient enough to read, just scroll through the pictures ok? It's gonna be long, i warn you first, i'm recording my feeling from the first till the end. :p

In case if you don't know, i was being selected as the Singer Head. I've/ We've been preparing for dayao like around 2 sem? A row of meetings, singers audition, mini concert, song selection, dayao camp, workshop, singer selection round 2, singer audition, band practice, singer test all the way until dayao. It's really tiring, no joke, damn stressful, i'm a person who is used to live under stress, ( yes, i am, i have a mutual relationship with stress, we benefit each other. zzz. ) *not being sarcastic seriously* but this time seriously no joke, but it also happens because i got all things crashing together. True la, my bad, nobody asked me to be such a kepochi and join so many stuffs. :(((

So all the burdens are on my shoulder since the day i agreed to accept this post, and it's worse because all of us wanted to make it back to the DTC stage, after being sickly traumatized by PDS last year. Ok, so all of us hold on this and never let it go even we faced so many hardships, from all aspects, management, skills, and relationships. I'm sorry that i'm a very stubborn person and i believed that i have given you all quite a hard time, but trust me, it wasn't done on purpose, i have my own reasons being stubborn. D: and i really wanna thank Yaslyn and Yu Hong for bearing with my bad temper, and though we had some quarrels but at last we were together and fight through the way. Thank you seniors esp Lek Meng, Chun Chyn, and Mi Zheng for always being supportive, giving me proper suggestions and advices, and lastly being brother enough to be my emotional trash bin. Thank you for spending time listening to my crap, i really need somewhere to release all my tension.

Talking about PDS, fyi, it means Post-Dayao Syndrome. in case if you got idea what it is.

It was very different. I felt really glad and relieved the show was a great success but PDS lasted for like less than 2 days?  First day, i was feeling quite empty and was still swimming through the positive feedbacks and memories we had. But the second day, my PDS ended, because it's time for post-mortem, instead of feeling reluctant, i feel more stressful of what i have not done well. Then, i adapted myself to negative comments and details of flaws of the entire performance i open-mindedly accepted the critiques from the seniors. Though still feeling stress about it aftermath, but feeling better after listening to sincere comments, i think i also learn a lot from that.

Seeing juniors still suffering from PDS, their passion and sense of belonging really touched me. I really treasure the moments spent with them; crazy supper, and getting out of the car and shake the butts at the traffic light in the middle of the road? Yes, we did this. xD "Once an Ark-Cloverian, forever an Ark-Cloverian." Heard that Yaslyn named this band after the Noah's Ark, she prayed that she's capable enough to hold them tgt, and yes, Yaslyn, you did that. It was a very amazing band. Juniors are all crazy and mentally attached to the band, and the friendship that is rooted among us shall never fade.

Ok, pichas time ! before i continue mumbling, :p

 ze girls.

 sapo Xin Yi ♥

 Ark-Cloverians ! ♥ hiao enough, and Andrew yoru butt very hiao hor.

 ze Chinese Traditional Dance gang ♥; Kuang Horng, me, Joan, and Jacky. 

Erm, sorry Zhi Yang, i got no idea why your hair is like that xD 

He, the perfect-pitcher. D;

with Jia Quan, stay sweeetttt with Jac. ♥ oh no, it's gonna go viral. hahhaha

*i look petite here, i slimmed own a lot, oops. :p

 ♥

 They said junior band ONLY. aiya, but who cares ? i'm junior what. xD

 I was just too hungry at the backstage.

 ♥ that moment.

 28th PBCUM gang ! Thanks for coming to support, finally, it's a complete one. :)

 with Foong Wah ♥ Thank you for helping me with my hairdo at the last min. :')

 Jillian, super cool drummer !

with le girls ! ♥

from the left: Zi Qi, Yaslyn, Yao Zhi, me, Kai Shin, Mei Zi, Violette, Khe Sin, and Jillian.

 ♥ my roomie ! Thank you Kimberly for everything :) ♥♥♥

with Sunday Girls, i just don't know why Soh Chun Chyn wanna photobomb. 

soh dek ma????? xD

 with Cheng Hooi, le dayao president. fuiyooohhhh

 muh kai pa, Kuang Horng la.

 Raee !!! always the crazy one, bluffed me that he was a Chi-Thai mix for 2 years. zzz

 Yaslyn, the music director a.k.a. the ironic girl. ♥

 oh with Dancer head, Yern Yee, good job, the dance moves were cool ! can i be a dancer next year ? :p

 my ootd ! ♥ loving the Maroon Red Bustier dress so much, just bought it 2 days before dayao.

 with Jared, partner of the day. Glad that i had a chance to duet with you. and stay sweeeet with your girl !♥

 with muh ex-bandmate ! Band Y ! with medic seniors, who went to Klang and cant join us this year :((

from left: Sher Lin, Leong Hooi, Joan, me, Xin Ni, Sue Sien, Moh Theng, Shun Herng.

 with Karen ! the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! ♥

Caryn, the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! ♥

with Jason, my "lao-sai" mate. ( pronounce it in Indon-slang cantonese, hahah ) 

 with Chu Ting, cute emcee. 

 with Jovian. eh macam ok worh this pic. xD

with my brother, Soh Chun Chyn ! ♥ He's gonna kill me for the love, hahah. ok, i got nothing with him.

anybody who is interested in him cn get his number from me. Damn yeng le. xDDD

can't get enough of Ark Clover ahhhhh.

our cover photo. Teehee. ♥♥
from the left: Luke, Pei Ling, Andrew( carrot milk babies ), Moh Theng, me, Hui San, Lek Meng, Jun Giap, Yaslyn, Song Han, Shi Hao, Jared, Mark Koh, Ke Sin( november babies ), Rou Jing and Ding Hang.

♥

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Also thanks to Dayao, i had the chance to do more live band performance and each of the opportunity gained me precious experience. I can see myself growing through each performing experience and of course through dayao. I'm a tougher and a stronger person now, all the tears have been shed worth it. Thank you everyone who came and supported me. I really appreciate your effort. :) and not forgeting to thank the crews behind the scene, multech and scenography dept have done very good job ! and thank you to Risyn ,Michelle and Kenny for making sure the programme flow runs smooth, Jinq Wen and Chun Wei for getting so many sponsors and thank you Yin Han for being so efficient at administrating, glad that i have known all of you. Sorry that could not write down your name one by one, but you know i thank you deep down from the heart. :)

Juniors, jia you for dayao 2015!

DAYAO ROCKS. SEE YOU 2015. ♥

sensei? years of life counting down?

Had not written anything since i don't know when, and all recent updates seems like all homesick kinda posts, so being reminded that i went to consult a Chinese sensei when i was back to home last CNY break. If you do follow my instagram or facebook, you'll know that i actually had food poisoning when i was in Penang, working trip after last term's final. Then, i had medicine but it does not recover fully 100%, because i have a bad stomach for quite sometime. Irregular time of sleep, time of meal, i don't even eat regularly, *not that i wanna make myself sick, but sometimes i cn forget about my meals when i gt so busy!* and all that contributed to bloated stomach, it's always bloated and sometimes i've got no appetite and would even throw out after eating. So i went up to the sensei and consulted him, at first he listened to my pulse, and he told me straight after a min, telling me that my bad stomach is caused irregular heartbeat, and irregular heartbeat is there because of extreme fatigue and over tiredness of my body. It's showing a red alarm, and if i continue to keep myself this busy for another 5 years max, i will have heart problem, seriously. I was so worried at first, and my parents keep themselves updated at my body condition every day. But still, when i'm back again, all kinds of fussy matters kept me so busy that i  got no time to think about it and slowly back to that hectic life. However and whatever, i will still need to maintain this at least until the end of year 2, but recently i've been feeling so tired, eventhough i have sleep enough, but i feel like i have not slept for years. With so many problems happening recently, i hope that i'm able to cope physically, and if i couldn't, i'll just have to make a choice and leave. I'm helpless in this, but if one day i ever leave, you know why. I struggled for quite sometime, whether i should post this, as this is quite personal, but i decided to post it here in my little corner.. I'm writing this not to gain sympathy but i realize life's too short to wake up with regrets, if, if one day i could not bid my farewell to everybody..