sensei? years of life counting down?

Had not written anything since i don't know when, and all recent updates seems like all homesick kinda posts, so being reminded that i went to consult a Chinese sensei when i was back to home last CNY break. If you do follow my instagram or facebook, you'll know that i actually had food poisoning when i was in Penang, working trip after last term's final. Then, i had medicine but it does not recover fully 100%, because i have a bad stomach for quite sometime. Irregular time of sleep, time of meal, i don't even eat regularly, *not that i wanna make myself sick, but sometimes i cn forget about my meals when i gt so busy!* and all that contributed to bloated stomach, it's always bloated and sometimes i've got no appetite and would even throw out after eating. So i went up to the sensei and consulted him, at first he listened to my pulse, and he told me straight after a min, telling me that my bad stomach is caused irregular heartbeat, and irregular heartbeat is there because of extreme fatigue and over tiredness of my body. It's showing a red alarm, and if i continue to keep myself this busy for another 5 years max, i will have heart problem, seriously. I was so worried at first, and my parents keep themselves updated at my body condition every day. But still, when i'm back again, all kinds of fussy matters kept me so busy that i  got no time to think about it and slowly back to that hectic life. However and whatever, i will still need to maintain this at least until the end of year 2, but recently i've been feeling so tired, eventhough i have sleep enough, but i feel like i have not slept for years. With so many problems happening recently, i hope that i'm able to cope physically, and if i couldn't, i'll just have to make a choice and leave. I'm helpless in this, but if one day i ever leave, you know why. I struggled for quite sometime, whether i should post this, as this is quite personal, but i decided to post it here in my little corner.. I'm writing this not to gain sympathy but i realize life's too short to wake up with regrets, if, if one day i could not bid my farewell to everybody..

很委屈

年十四，我又离家了。
就这样离开了，我那温暖的床。
几个小时的车程，路上也没睡好，司机连播了2个小时的淡米尔文歌，我都快疯了。（语言是个很大的障碍）
姐姐来车站载我，我也等了将近一小时，然后再去吃午餐。
好吧，午餐好吃，等也算了。

匆匆忙忙回到宿舍房间，午觉也没得睡，冲了凉就赶快到公司去。
下午还需要工作，差不多3 星期都没工作，严格来说，我天天工作的日子是差了整2个月吧！整个状态都好差，好生疏，老毛病又重犯，整个人都没心情。
遇到及差又不负责任的主办单位，更是让人爆血管，无端端延迟了我的时间表。
回到了公司，差不多就9pm了， 晚餐没吃，想着回到房间再随便吃就好了。想着省钱，又决定搭shuttle bus. 最近shuttle bus总是迟到，我知道，是为了要载放工的外劳，但同时就害我要miss rapid bus, 又不能怪他们，因为他们其实也很可怜。
结果，去到了kelana jaya，再搭lrt回lrt uni。 说什么塞车，T632会迟到，但我没带防狼器，又怕遇到上次的事情也不敢走回去，只好坐着等。等了45分钟，巴士才出现，但整条路是完全没塞车，我不知道到底他们使用什么来判断说很塞车，此时此刻，我很想大骂“无脑！”。等45分钟，我胃痛又发作，看着包包里还有两包饼，硬啃了12片饼干，附近也没有饮料卖，干增增赢吞下去。然后，还要走个10分钟才回到宿舍，结果我9pm回家，11pm+才回到家。路程其实只有短短4km,我真的很生气，很委屈。
到最后，为了省钱，费了两个小时，饿着肚子，才回到家。
我真的觉得很生气又很委屈。

或许是这几个礼拜在家被宠惯了，以前根本不把这样的事当作委屈，难受就把气往肚里吞，但我现在就是很。难。受。很。委。屈。

浪子的心声

收来收去，怎么都收不好
不是要带的太多，而是要带的太重

收来收去，怎么都收不好
不是我手脚太慢，而是我就不想走

简简单单
清清淡淡
懒懒散散
轻轻松松
快快乐乐



哎，我就是舍不得。。。

 

离家的路，

好长。。好远。。。

#ootd: CNY 2014

CNY? Wheeeee.. time to dress up !
Not so much to post on CNY, coz mine are the typical ones: Movie session is daily routine for my family.
So, i had 6 movies for CNY. Nailed it ! that is like my whole year quota for movies...
Quite a short post, barely about my #ootd  !

Theme for this year's CNY was neon x soft metal. I wanted to be different compared to past years and started to adore the way Jane Chuck and Ashley dress, i like how they have the thoughts of "You are what you dress". Dressing up can be fun, it can an art as well, to bring out of your personality. I'm slowly changing my way of dressing to something more rock, metal and edgy. Trying to give people the impression of me being tougher. I'm no longer an all day lacey-fancy girl :D

Chor Yat:

 Neon yellow top + flowery tight skirt from Kitschen+ black envelope bag.

Chor Yi:

Neon green cropped top + leopard printed see through maxi (both from Kitschen)

+black envelope bag + Carlorino loafers

Chor Sam: I was supposed to join my gang for a picnic, but i was sick. Darrrrnnnn, whole day trapped at home.:(( *cry cry*

Chor Sei: With my youthful sister, Joanne. Believe it or not, she's a mother to a 3 year old kid. *shocked face* We coincidentally bought same series of clothes for new year. That kind of Chu sisters spirit. Both of us in matching black x white x neon pink. 

alright, that's all.
hehe, i know it's a damn lazy post.
:DD
nvm lah, next time i write more,
okayh??
xoxo,
kbyethx,
see you soon.

#ootd #neon #softmetal #flowery #tightskirt #black #white #clutch #envelopebag #loafers #rocker #chic #cny #outfit


i know i know, some people have negative comments to my way of dressing..But, i would like to let you know that i...

"I've never expected you to understand my taste and my style, because i don't dress to impress you. I dress for myself"

备。战。状。态。

又回到了备战状态。

游子在外漂浮了4个月，终于回到家了。即便短短的这几天都没有在家做到些什么温习，to-do-list只增无减，但仍然是满足的。回到家里，睡醒就吃，吃饱就睡，完全是个与世隔绝的大懒虫。平时连休息都没有时间，即使是假日或周末，都在工作，都在忙永远都忙不完的学生活动。从新年到现在，一整年，在家呆着的时间还少于一个月，甚至是sem break，我都在intern, training, camp。。说真的，我好像常年都在忙碌的状态，所谓休息就是去逛个街，好久都没有睡到自然醒了。最近忙校园选举，真的身体身心的波动都很大，大喜大落后我并没有回到家，没有家人的依偎，只是继续的忙工作和课业。虽说，哥哥姐姐都在吉隆坡，但毕竟回到家的感觉，还是不一样的。这几天，吃着妈妈煮的菜，睡着温暖的床，才总算真的有休息了。虽然有很努力想要早起，但每一天都会自动关掉闹钟然后继续睡，我想也是身体太久没休息了吧。每天睡到自然醒，把妈妈的每一道菜吃个清光，看着astro的连续剧，让爸爸帮这个体弱的女儿作“原子点”，把该烦的都丢弃一旁不顾，反正就是在家晃来晃去，吃饱了就继续闹着妈妈多弄些甜品，硬嚷着说饿，然后就看着妈妈傻笑，让妈妈摸摸头亲一下。虽然很累，却心甘情愿的为孩子忙。妈妈嘴里一直说，“以后有放假就要多回来。”我才发现，我真的累了，真的想家了。

但，很快的，5天后又回到了只有书桌，床和衣橱的宿舍。我又回到了备战状态。虽然好像还没休息够，但我想我这个游子还是休息休息就好，不然，当我习惯了家的温暖，我就会想靠岸了。。

os: “加油吧！”

helpless blog wtfbbq

Couldn't fall asleep in the midnight, thanks to the determined father on trying to make a cup of good luwak coffee. ._.
It is Christmas today, which tells me enough that this year is coming to an end too. I tried to recall back what have i done in this year, and what have i blogged about. It seems quite empty especially since the starting of the new sem. I used to have lots of feelings and thinking to be jotted down, but i kept procrastinating. Things and workloads that will never come to an end, kept my to-blog-stories-list piling up high, and slowly i forgot what i wanted to write about. I felt so regretful and upset that my feelings and emotions at that moments were not being jotted down, i lost a piece of the puzzle of my emotions. Again, as i've promised to myself, i need to blog more often, and yt i failed to do so AGAIN. Not wanting to let the blog die, but i'm like so helpless to watch it die. And it feels so extremely bad to watch all my supposed-to-have-blogged-sincere-words gone.

I could only SIGH now.

doing some last possible resuscitation to the bloggie.
poor blog.

忙里偷闲

那天因为工作关系，终于有机会喝个下午茶。因为真的太久没放松过，所以当时坐下来就拿出我的笔记记录当时的心情。当然也把当时的感受美化了，扮得好像很有文笔。

曾以为

渴望那个已久的下午茶

就在永无止境的繁忙中

幻化成泡沫 消失得无影

下午茶只是太奢侈的渴望。

终于，

在偶然的际遇下，

走进了一间以象牙白为主的咖啡厅。

店里并没有电影中男女主角相遇的浪漫情节

却怀着一丝古典的味道 ，

简单的设计巧妙地把古今融而为一。

店里播着一首首老旧的英文歌，

彷佛在缅怀过去美好的回忆。

店里挂着一盏盏的黄灯，

灯底下却是一个个迷茫的灵魂

彷佛在咖啡厅寻找烦恼的谜底。

而我，怀着一颗单纯的心思，

只想暂时逃离现实的埋伏，

让长年处于紧绷状态的心情

能够得到全面的解脱。

在急喘的步伐下，

再展露出一列笑容，

为困扰的思索 重新定义忙碌的理由。

一片蛋糕 一杯咖啡

喝出生命的顿悟。

重新冲刺 重新出发。

我的巧克力慕斯蛋糕。 

巧克力慕斯+绿茶巧克力。 

卡布奇诺。 

12/10/2013 4.40pm
@ Cappucino Cafe.