28 May 2014

spoonfeed or self-learn ?

So, I try to recap what have I studied for the semester 2 of my year 2. I did not have time to update at the early sem and also wrap up for last semester’s on time yet, and now still busy with final week submission, but I couldn’t stop myself from writing this. Courses I’m taking this sem are Introduction to Sociology, Introduction to Psychology, Media and Politics, Visual Anthropology, Contemporary Social Thoughts and Quantitative Data Analysis. So the first 3 are those which I think I can still manage and interested with, but the latter 3 are those I’m really so terrified with. I have to admit I was not a good student for this whole semester, I was too overfilled with activities, work and my health condition isn’t getting any better. And there's only one thing i can say i'm just a typical kind of student. I'm used to spoonfed education ever since we're all young beanies, so it's really hard for me to go through non-spoonfed and all self-digged-information studies. I would say NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. and i'm a notes kind of student, i can't study without proper notes. So, please give me notes and i will score.

I know this sounds really bad and lazy, but it's true, i like the idea of the latter method, but i'm just not brought up in such education system. And it kills if you're expecting me to score an 'A' with that kind of teaching method and in the situation that we're so overloaded with activities. Yes, some would say studies should be a student's priority; it's yours but not mine. I just wanted to learn instead of doing for the sake of doing it. So, please continue to spoonfeed me, i got so irritated with the helpless syllabus, where everyone in the class told you, this method is not working and you still go on with it and tell us you got no choice.
BLLLLLLAHHHHHHHHHHHH.


11 May 2014

Mother's Day 2014 + Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory

Yes, im writing again, hoho. Am feeling so inspired to write whenever i'm home. Home is a good place to write :p *home is a noble/good place to inculcate good bloggers, teehee* This year i made it back to home to celebrate Mother's Day, finally. Previously, I was too busy with my work and activities, that i missed out almost all important events with family :( Sowiiieeee, Papa, Mama, I'll try my best to come back as frequent as i could. Back to the topic, let's see how i celebrated Mother's Day !

It was actually a very ordinary day with daily routine, woke up and did my assignments for awhile then went out for lunch and to buy movie tickets *a MUST routine for occasions/events* Then we went back and nap for awhile....ikr, i made it sounded boring*the Chu family is very used to take afternoon nap :p* Before going out again, i sneaked out to buy flowers for my mum while she was taking her bath. But too bad, the flower was not ready yt, i was told to come again in awhile more. So by the time we went out, le father used another route to drive to the destination, and my mother was like screaming literally..blahhh, but then she was so overwhelmed when i handled her the lil bouquet of flowers *this might sound really bad, but erm, we weren't educated to be romantic..and flowers...hmm.. they're too romantic xD* however, it feels really good when you see the beautiful smile hanging on her face. And you can actually wrap up a conclusion: "all girls love flowers." Still remember the last time she received a flower from me, was 11 years ago. *shame on me* That was during the 25th anniversary with my papa, and now the 36th anniversary.. Then we had some high-tea session at Secret Recipe before we head for movies. Below are some pictures to share :)







oh so sweet. 


oh bulb! :/ btw, my hand look so long here.

that bouquet of carnations. 
haha, just ngeh ngeh wanna show my photography skills.
macam improve liao. *everybody knows my photography skills sucks.*



Wokayh, let's get into second chapter. As you can see at the title, " Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory". What was that about? it's more intellectual kind but very interesting to know. And if you wanna know more, click here. I was suddenly very inspired to talk about this after i watched this movie. 

I can tell you it's a very good movie to learn Freudian's Psychoanalytic Theory. So to make it simple, i will explain briefly about this theory. This theory was introduced by Sigmund Freud, and he actually laid out that "personality development underlies the consciousness level". And a few simple things, there are 3 identities ( ID, EGO and SUPEREGO ) that lies among your 3 consciousness level. ( conscious, pre-conscious, and unconscious ) 


In short, ID is buried deep down below your consciousness level, ( unconscious ) and EGO appears at a very conscious state. ID was operated by pleasure principle while EGO was operated by rationality. This is also where conflicts will occur. But, as we can see, we have no strong awareness about the existence of ID because it is buried deep down in the sub-conscious mind. Therefore, in this movie, we can see that Dave ( the main character ) he tried to be rational when he realized that he made mistakes (which he is conscious atm) and he couldn't control himself when the sub-conscious mind was controlling over him and ID took over his SUPEREGO identity ( which was to balance out between ID and EGO ). So, we often see people having conflicts between this. :p 


Just something to share, because this movie explains it so clearly that Dave became a demon without himself realizing about it until the last second. And when he is at the pre-conscious state, he thinks he's wrong, and he punishes himself by slapping belt hard to his body. Some might say he's at a conscious state instead of pre-conscious because pain makes him realize. But the main argument here is that he doesn't even realize that the demon lives in him, which is the ID that lies under his unconscious mind, when he thought is the bad guy(who had died earlier on, and Dave wasn't aware about this) who did all the murders. Having this ID that lives in the unconscious mind is usually caused by childhood trauma, and which exactly it was the trauma that has triggered him after he lived his years of life peacefully. (peacefully, i would say so, because he did no violence to others after this trauma, besides himself, but of course, he is psychologically stressed and burdened) That extreme fear is what that has haunted him for years. 


Well, maybe i sound confusing, basically just sharing what i know, just watch the movie and you'll understand what i'm saying. :)
Well, maybe i'm wrong. Correct me then if i am. I'm always ready to learn. :)


Lastly, selfie of course ! xD



                                                            Side Holland double braid. 
                                          If you see carefully, you'll see there's a double braid...
                                                                and dark circles. T.T
                                                #doublebraid #sidebraid #hollandbraid #hotd


                                          ootd. Ignore my face, the lighting in the room was bad. 
                                                        Lacey turquoise blue mini dress with belt.
                                          #ootd #lace #turquoiseblue #minidress #girlsbeinggirls



                                      and Happy Mother's Day !! 




Kbyethx. See you soon. 
HOPEFULLY.



09 May 2014

PDS*2

So here it is my PDS post. Finally decided to post this despite knowing that i have tonnes of assignments to do. I'm just feeling motivated to do so, after seeing so many seniors posted about it, ahh, dun wanna lost the feeling i'm feeling right now. It took me 2 semesters of hard work to feel it ok. HAHHAHAH.
Hmm, gonna blog about it starting from the beginning till the end, so if you're not patient enough to read, just scroll through the pictures ok? It's gonna be long, i warn you first, i'm recording my feeling from the first till the end. :p

In case if you don't know, i was being selected as the Singer Head. I've/ We've been preparing for dayao like around 2 sem? A row of meetings, singers audition, mini concert, song selection, dayao camp, workshop, singer selection round 2, singer audition, band practice, singer test all the way until dayao. It's really tiring, no joke, damn stressful, i'm a person who is used to live under stress, ( yes, i am, i have a mutual relationship with stress, we benefit each other. zzz. ) *not being sarcastic seriously* but this time seriously no joke, but it also happens because i got all things crashing together. True la, my bad, nobody asked me to be such a kepochi and join so many stuffs. :(((

So all the burdens are on my shoulder since the day i agreed to accept this post, and it's worse because all of us wanted to make it back to the DTC stage, after being sickly traumatized by PDS last year. Ok, so all of us hold on this and never let it go even we faced so many hardships, from all aspects, management, skills, and relationships. I'm sorry that i'm a very stubborn person and i believed that i have given you all quite a hard time, but trust me, it wasn't done on purpose, i have my own reasons being stubborn. D: and i really wanna thank Yaslyn and Yu Hong for bearing with my bad temper, and though we had some quarrels but at last we were together and fight through the way. Thank you seniors esp Lek Meng, Chun Chyn, and Mi Zheng for always being supportive, giving me proper suggestions and advices, and lastly being brother enough to be my emotional trash bin. Thank you for spending time listening to my crap, i really need somewhere to release all my tension.

Talking about PDS, fyi, it means Post-Dayao Syndrome. in case if you got idea what it is.

It was very different. I felt really glad and relieved the show was a great success but PDS lasted for like less than 2 days?  First day, i was feeling quite empty and was still swimming through the positive feedbacks and memories we had. But the second day, my PDS ended, because it's time for post-mortem, instead of feeling reluctant, i feel more stressful of what i have not done well. Then, i adapted myself to negative comments and details of flaws of the entire performance i open-mindedly accepted the critiques from the seniors. Though still feeling stress about it aftermath, but feeling better after listening to sincere comments, i think i also learn a lot from that.

Seeing juniors still suffering from PDS, their passion and sense of belonging really touched me. I really treasure the moments spent with them; crazy supper, and getting out of the car and shake the butts at the traffic light in the middle of the road? Yes, we did this. xD "Once an Ark-Cloverian, forever an Ark-Cloverian." Heard that Yaslyn named this band after the Noah's Ark, she prayed that she's capable enough to hold them tgt, and yes, Yaslyn, you did that. It was a very amazing band. Juniors are all crazy and mentally attached to the band, and the friendship that is rooted among us shall never fade.

Ok, pichas time ! before i continue mumbling, :p

 ze girls.

 sapo Xin Yi ♥

 Ark-Cloverians ! ♥ hiao enough, and Andrew yoru butt very hiao hor.

 ze Chinese Traditional Dance gang ♥; Kuang Horng, me, Joan, and Jacky. 

Erm, sorry Zhi Yang, i got no idea why your hair is like that xD 
He, the perfect-pitcher. D;

with Jia Quan, stay sweeetttt with Jac. ♥ oh no, it's gonna go viral. hahhaha
*i look petite here, i slimmed own a lot, oops. :p

 ♥

 They said junior band ONLY. aiya, but who cares ? i'm junior what. xD

 I was just too hungry at the backstage.

 ♥ that moment.

 28th PBCUM gang ! Thanks for coming to support, finally, it's a complete one. :)

 with Foong Wah ♥ Thank you for helping me with my hairdo at the last min. :')

 Jillian, super cool drummer !

with le girls ! ♥
from the left: Zi Qi, Yaslyn, Yao Zhi, me, Kai Shin, Mei Zi, Violette, Khe Sin, and Jillian.

 ♥ my roomie ! Thank you Kimberly for everything :) ♥♥♥


with Sunday Girls, i just don't know why Soh Chun Chyn wanna photobomb. 
soh dek ma????? xD

 with Cheng Hooi, le dayao president. fuiyooohhhh

 muh kai pa, Kuang Horng la.

 Raee !!! always the crazy one, bluffed me that he was a Chi-Thai mix for 2 years. zzz

 Yaslyn, the music director a.k.a. the ironic girl. 


 oh with Dancer head, Yern Yee, good job, the dance moves were cool ! can i be a dancer next year ? :p

 my ootd ! ♥ loving the Maroon Red Bustier dress so much, just bought it 2 days before dayao.


 with Jared, partner of the day. Glad that i had a chance to duet with you. and stay sweeeet with your girl !

 with muh ex-bandmate ! Band Y ! with medic seniors, who went to Klang and cant join us this year :((
from left: Sher Lin, Leong Hooi, Joan, me, Xin Ni, Sue Sien, Moh Theng, Shun Herng.

 with Karen ! the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! 

Caryn, the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! 


with Jason, my "lao-sai" mate. ( pronounce it in Indon-slang cantonese, hahah ) 

 with Chu Ting, cute emcee. 

 with Jovian. eh macam ok worh this pic. xD

with my brother, Soh Chun Chyn ! ♥ He's gonna kill me for the love, hahah. ok, i got nothing with him.
anybody who is interested in him cn get his number from me. Damn yeng le. xDDD



can't get enough of Ark Clover ahhhhh.



our cover photo. Teehee. 
from the left: Luke, Pei Ling, Andrew( carrot milk babies ), Moh Theng, me, Hui San, Lek Meng, Jun Giap, Yaslyn, Song Han, Shi Hao, Jared, Mark Koh, Ke Sin( november babies ), Rou Jing and Ding Hang.


Also thanks to Dayao, i had the chance to do more live band performance and each of the opportunity gained me precious experience. I can see myself growing through each performing experience and of course through dayao. I'm a tougher and a stronger person now, all the tears have been shed worth it. Thank you everyone who came and supported me. I really appreciate your effort. :) and not forgeting to thank the crews behind the scene, multech and scenography dept have done very good job ! and thank you to Risyn ,Michelle and Kenny for making sure the programme flow runs smooth, Jinq Wen and Chun Wei for getting so many sponsors and thank you Yin Han for being so efficient at administrating, glad that i have known all of you. Sorry that could not write down your name one by one, but you know i thank you deep down from the heart. :)

Juniors, jia you for dayao 2015!

DAYAO ROCKS. SEE YOU 2015.