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11 May 2014

Mother's Day 2014 + Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory

Yes, im writing again, hoho. Am feeling so inspired to write whenever i'm home. Home is a good place to write :p *home is a noble/good place to inculcate good bloggers, teehee* This year i made it back to home to celebrate Mother's Day, finally. Previously, I was too busy with my work and activities, that i missed out almost all important events with family :( Sowiiieeee, Papa, Mama, I'll try my best to come back as frequent as i could. Back to the topic, let's see how i celebrated Mother's Day !

It was actually a very ordinary day with daily routine, woke up and did my assignments for awhile then went out for lunch and to buy movie tickets *a MUST routine for occasions/events* Then we went back and nap for awhile....ikr, i made it sounded boring*the Chu family is very used to take afternoon nap :p* Before going out again, i sneaked out to buy flowers for my mum while she was taking her bath. But too bad, the flower was not ready yt, i was told to come again in awhile more. So by the time we went out, le father used another route to drive to the destination, and my mother was like screaming literally..blahhh, but then she was so overwhelmed when i handled her the lil bouquet of flowers *this might sound really bad, but erm, we weren't educated to be romantic..and flowers...hmm.. they're too romantic xD* however, it feels really good when you see the beautiful smile hanging on her face. And you can actually wrap up a conclusion: "all girls love flowers." Still remember the last time she received a flower from me, was 11 years ago. *shame on me* That was during the 25th anniversary with my papa, and now the 36th anniversary.. Then we had some high-tea session at Secret Recipe before we head for movies. Below are some pictures to share :)







oh so sweet. 


oh bulb! :/ btw, my hand look so long here.

that bouquet of carnations. 
haha, just ngeh ngeh wanna show my photography skills.
macam improve liao. *everybody knows my photography skills sucks.*



Wokayh, let's get into second chapter. As you can see at the title, " Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory". What was that about? it's more intellectual kind but very interesting to know. And if you wanna know more, click here. I was suddenly very inspired to talk about this after i watched this movie. 

I can tell you it's a very good movie to learn Freudian's Psychoanalytic Theory. So to make it simple, i will explain briefly about this theory. This theory was introduced by Sigmund Freud, and he actually laid out that "personality development underlies the consciousness level". And a few simple things, there are 3 identities ( ID, EGO and SUPEREGO ) that lies among your 3 consciousness level. ( conscious, pre-conscious, and unconscious ) 


In short, ID is buried deep down below your consciousness level, ( unconscious ) and EGO appears at a very conscious state. ID was operated by pleasure principle while EGO was operated by rationality. This is also where conflicts will occur. But, as we can see, we have no strong awareness about the existence of ID because it is buried deep down in the sub-conscious mind. Therefore, in this movie, we can see that Dave ( the main character ) he tried to be rational when he realized that he made mistakes (which he is conscious atm) and he couldn't control himself when the sub-conscious mind was controlling over him and ID took over his SUPEREGO identity ( which was to balance out between ID and EGO ). So, we often see people having conflicts between this. :p 


Just something to share, because this movie explains it so clearly that Dave became a demon without himself realizing about it until the last second. And when he is at the pre-conscious state, he thinks he's wrong, and he punishes himself by slapping belt hard to his body. Some might say he's at a conscious state instead of pre-conscious because pain makes him realize. But the main argument here is that he doesn't even realize that the demon lives in him, which is the ID that lies under his unconscious mind, when he thought is the bad guy(who had died earlier on, and Dave wasn't aware about this) who did all the murders. Having this ID that lives in the unconscious mind is usually caused by childhood trauma, and which exactly it was the trauma that has triggered him after he lived his years of life peacefully. (peacefully, i would say so, because he did no violence to others after this trauma, besides himself, but of course, he is psychologically stressed and burdened) That extreme fear is what that has haunted him for years. 


Well, maybe i sound confusing, basically just sharing what i know, just watch the movie and you'll understand what i'm saying. :)
Well, maybe i'm wrong. Correct me then if i am. I'm always ready to learn. :)


Lastly, selfie of course ! xD



                                                            Side Holland double braid. 
                                          If you see carefully, you'll see there's a double braid...
                                                                and dark circles. T.T
                                                #doublebraid #sidebraid #hollandbraid #hotd


                                          ootd. Ignore my face, the lighting in the room was bad. 
                                                        Lacey turquoise blue mini dress with belt.
                                          #ootd #lace #turquoiseblue #minidress #girlsbeinggirls



                                      and Happy Mother's Day !! 




Kbyethx. See you soon. 
HOPEFULLY.



09 May 2014

PDS*2

So here it is my PDS post. Finally decided to post this despite knowing that i have tonnes of assignments to do. I'm just feeling motivated to do so, after seeing so many seniors posted about it, ahh, dun wanna lost the feeling i'm feeling right now. It took me 2 semesters of hard work to feel it ok. HAHHAHAH.
Hmm, gonna blog about it starting from the beginning till the end, so if you're not patient enough to read, just scroll through the pictures ok? It's gonna be long, i warn you first, i'm recording my feeling from the first till the end. :p

In case if you don't know, i was being selected as the Singer Head. I've/ We've been preparing for dayao like around 2 sem? A row of meetings, singers audition, mini concert, song selection, dayao camp, workshop, singer selection round 2, singer audition, band practice, singer test all the way until dayao. It's really tiring, no joke, damn stressful, i'm a person who is used to live under stress, ( yes, i am, i have a mutual relationship with stress, we benefit each other. zzz. ) *not being sarcastic seriously* but this time seriously no joke, but it also happens because i got all things crashing together. True la, my bad, nobody asked me to be such a kepochi and join so many stuffs. :(((

So all the burdens are on my shoulder since the day i agreed to accept this post, and it's worse because all of us wanted to make it back to the DTC stage, after being sickly traumatized by PDS last year. Ok, so all of us hold on this and never let it go even we faced so many hardships, from all aspects, management, skills, and relationships. I'm sorry that i'm a very stubborn person and i believed that i have given you all quite a hard time, but trust me, it wasn't done on purpose, i have my own reasons being stubborn. D: and i really wanna thank Yaslyn and Yu Hong for bearing with my bad temper, and though we had some quarrels but at last we were together and fight through the way. Thank you seniors esp Lek Meng, Chun Chyn, and Mi Zheng for always being supportive, giving me proper suggestions and advices, and lastly being brother enough to be my emotional trash bin. Thank you for spending time listening to my crap, i really need somewhere to release all my tension.

Talking about PDS, fyi, it means Post-Dayao Syndrome. in case if you got idea what it is.

It was very different. I felt really glad and relieved the show was a great success but PDS lasted for like less than 2 days?  First day, i was feeling quite empty and was still swimming through the positive feedbacks and memories we had. But the second day, my PDS ended, because it's time for post-mortem, instead of feeling reluctant, i feel more stressful of what i have not done well. Then, i adapted myself to negative comments and details of flaws of the entire performance i open-mindedly accepted the critiques from the seniors. Though still feeling stress about it aftermath, but feeling better after listening to sincere comments, i think i also learn a lot from that.

Seeing juniors still suffering from PDS, their passion and sense of belonging really touched me. I really treasure the moments spent with them; crazy supper, and getting out of the car and shake the butts at the traffic light in the middle of the road? Yes, we did this. xD "Once an Ark-Cloverian, forever an Ark-Cloverian." Heard that Yaslyn named this band after the Noah's Ark, she prayed that she's capable enough to hold them tgt, and yes, Yaslyn, you did that. It was a very amazing band. Juniors are all crazy and mentally attached to the band, and the friendship that is rooted among us shall never fade.

Ok, pichas time ! before i continue mumbling, :p

 ze girls.

 sapo Xin Yi ♥

 Ark-Cloverians ! ♥ hiao enough, and Andrew yoru butt very hiao hor.

 ze Chinese Traditional Dance gang ♥; Kuang Horng, me, Joan, and Jacky. 

Erm, sorry Zhi Yang, i got no idea why your hair is like that xD 
He, the perfect-pitcher. D;

with Jia Quan, stay sweeetttt with Jac. ♥ oh no, it's gonna go viral. hahhaha
*i look petite here, i slimmed own a lot, oops. :p

 ♥

 They said junior band ONLY. aiya, but who cares ? i'm junior what. xD

 I was just too hungry at the backstage.

 ♥ that moment.

 28th PBCUM gang ! Thanks for coming to support, finally, it's a complete one. :)

 with Foong Wah ♥ Thank you for helping me with my hairdo at the last min. :')

 Jillian, super cool drummer !

with le girls ! ♥
from the left: Zi Qi, Yaslyn, Yao Zhi, me, Kai Shin, Mei Zi, Violette, Khe Sin, and Jillian.

 ♥ my roomie ! Thank you Kimberly for everything :) ♥♥♥


with Sunday Girls, i just don't know why Soh Chun Chyn wanna photobomb. 
soh dek ma????? xD

 with Cheng Hooi, le dayao president. fuiyooohhhh

 muh kai pa, Kuang Horng la.

 Raee !!! always the crazy one, bluffed me that he was a Chi-Thai mix for 2 years. zzz

 Yaslyn, the music director a.k.a. the ironic girl. 


 oh with Dancer head, Yern Yee, good job, the dance moves were cool ! can i be a dancer next year ? :p

 my ootd ! ♥ loving the Maroon Red Bustier dress so much, just bought it 2 days before dayao.


 with Jared, partner of the day. Glad that i had a chance to duet with you. and stay sweeeet with your girl !

 with muh ex-bandmate ! Band Y ! with medic seniors, who went to Klang and cant join us this year :((
from left: Sher Lin, Leong Hooi, Joan, me, Xin Ni, Sue Sien, Moh Theng, Shun Herng.

 with Karen ! the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! 

Caryn, the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! 


with Jason, my "lao-sai" mate. ( pronounce it in Indon-slang cantonese, hahah ) 

 with Chu Ting, cute emcee. 

 with Jovian. eh macam ok worh this pic. xD

with my brother, Soh Chun Chyn ! ♥ He's gonna kill me for the love, hahah. ok, i got nothing with him.
anybody who is interested in him cn get his number from me. Damn yeng le. xDDD



can't get enough of Ark Clover ahhhhh.



our cover photo. Teehee. 
from the left: Luke, Pei Ling, Andrew( carrot milk babies ), Moh Theng, me, Hui San, Lek Meng, Jun Giap, Yaslyn, Song Han, Shi Hao, Jared, Mark Koh, Ke Sin( november babies ), Rou Jing and Ding Hang.


Also thanks to Dayao, i had the chance to do more live band performance and each of the opportunity gained me precious experience. I can see myself growing through each performing experience and of course through dayao. I'm a tougher and a stronger person now, all the tears have been shed worth it. Thank you everyone who came and supported me. I really appreciate your effort. :) and not forgeting to thank the crews behind the scene, multech and scenography dept have done very good job ! and thank you to Risyn ,Michelle and Kenny for making sure the programme flow runs smooth, Jinq Wen and Chun Wei for getting so many sponsors and thank you Yin Han for being so efficient at administrating, glad that i have known all of you. Sorry that could not write down your name one by one, but you know i thank you deep down from the heart. :)

Juniors, jia you for dayao 2015!

DAYAO ROCKS. SEE YOU 2015. 

21 August 2013

八度空间校园主播培训营

从小,就梦想当上电视新闻主播。
记得还小的时候,我第一个梦想是当个老师,到后来家里调到了ntv7才被熏陶了,想像方若琪一样,在 镜头前说着那么标准的华语,第一时间把新闻送上。这完全颠覆了rtm“新闻主播都是有一定年纪的这种想法。自此,我就梦想要当上新闻主播。妈妈的教育是人不要去迷恋偶像,所以我在喜欢王力宏,他也只是一个当红明星,是不会出现在我生活圈子的;但当时我唯一的偶像就是方若琪。

这么多年以来,我就是爱文章;在学校,就是爱读课文,课文越长越好。在家听新闻,就是他说一句,我念一句,总是那么练,所以基本上我的汉语拼音还算不错,但只爱读不爱写,写作能力自然不好。(不然你看我这篇文章的语句那么不通顺)

到后来,上大学时期,慢慢接触写作,这也要谢谢"Samsung Digital Writing Bootcamp" 是被Choo Mei Sze 发了我的写作兴趣,她,一直是我学习的对象,那么明艳动人,那么正面积极。同时兼任新闻主播、主持人、专栏作家,是我多么向往的生活,是我要的人生。也因 为她的影响,让我习惯把笔记本带在身边,随时记载着激励性的事情,不管有没有用到,感觉有笔记本在身边,我就不会错过任何美好的事。但那时候,我自己是比 较注重用英文书写,所以blog都用英语。渐渐的,当上华文学会副主席后,发现华文不好,是很难的,很不方便的,所以现在我都尽量多说标准华语,希望可以在中5以后完全一点不剩的还给老师的知识和语法,可以一点一点拼凑起来。(请告诉我,我的华语有进步)


回到主播培训营的故事:


嘉荣老师主持了3天的培训营(16-18/8),而各个名人主播,电台DJ,主持人还有一些幕后制作人和广告配音员都给我们上课。每一堂课都获益良多,而 且他们都没有架子,一一的讲解与指导。新闻制作、播报技巧、写新闻的要诀、华语正音、现场连线技巧、现场访问技巧、声音表情、娱乐新闻主持技巧参观电台、坐上主播台,在电台on-air说的一小段话等等。。
说真的,这些真的是有钱也买不到的经验。


                                   我们的课室。


和陈嘉荣老师。手上拿着的是爱上主播台,是陈嘉荣老师的著作;是新闻主播的圣经、更是我们这些梦想当上主播的秘籍宝典。每个学员手上都有一本。当时很想要买,但最后选择了买本舌上辩场,没想到竟然还可以拿到嘉荣老师亲笔签名的书。:D


颖惠;马大帮。花哈哈。


马大帮缺二。

 Sushi Zanmai, Chicken dunno what bon. Hahahha 
和马大帮的晚餐。

 没有要照骗。当时房间的灯光,太糟,才修了光线和效果。
那三天,每天都天还没亮就起身,化妆扮美美;为的就是确保自己的仪容。

 巧遇小学同学;霭雯。

 家俊;比我还傻。哈哈。Live Cross完全被我们玩疯了。

 组员:明俊。

智豪学长。*yerr*

ootd ! #day2


难得的一张。

 巧遇明星;蔡佩璇和苗苗。真人没什么架子耶,蔡佩璇好漂亮!



 第三天 :)

 叶剑锋老师<3


One FM DJ - Angeline.
今天参观one fm的录音室时,在Angeline的时段录了一小段话,分享我对这次培训营的心情。
你,听到我的声音了吗?:)

 开玩笑,谭老师年纪轻轻可是我faculty的教授,是位PhD学生!

 One fm DJ- Nicholas and Apple

马大帮和嘉荣老师的全家福!:p


在结束前,我分享了一小段话。
家好,我是慧敏。首先我要感谢陈嘉荣老师还有所有台前幕后的工作人员。还记得那时候我来面试后,回到家就信心满满的在期待入围名单,但后来名单上竟然没有我的名字 。那时候我真的崩溃大哭,哭了好久,想到自己也不是本科生,觉得自己与梦想的距离越来越远。所以,我真的很感谢八度空间让我有这个机会。当然我会追求自己的梦想但坐上主播台也许人生真的只有那么一次,所以我非常感激。谢谢!

在说这一段话的时候,我完全是在哽咽的状态下说 的,那时嘉荣老师还安慰我说:不是的,其实你很好。这句话给我很大的安慰,他说他明白那种感受,因为他也曾经经历过。我真的痛哭了好久,也怀疑自己的 能力。我曾经说过有梦想的孩子是幸福的,但看着梦想破灭的那一刻却是非常的无助。但我知道,梦想是没有捷径的,只要坚持、努力不懈,一定会有结果。我真的 很开心,因为这次的培训营重燃我的梦想,我才没有迷失方向,我才有追梦的动力。



梦想· 起航 

 还记得上一次,我们去参加八度空间校园主播培训营甄选活动的时候,临走前,还叫Pak Guard帮我们拍照,说是纪念一下,因为可能没有下一次。
但我暗自告诉自己;我一定要再回来。
我真的做到了。:)


你好,我是校园主播,朱慧敏