PDS*3

DAYAO has finally ended, beautifully, on 4th May 2015. Yes, coincidently it's 4th May again this year. When it ends, it also marks the beginning of #PDS, Post Dayao Syndrome. Though right now i'm really bad at writing and i've lost all my blogging skills, but still don't care i'm just gonna write. So, here it goes my PDS post. 

I'm actually currently in my third year and as a third year student meaning LIFE IS ALL ABOUT FYP a.k.a THESIS. I'm quite tied up with my thesis and slowly i'm letting go my positions in all of the organizations and passing them to my juniors. Also, being too hectic in my second year uni life, it literally did drained me off, so i'm trying to give myself a balance, though i'm still juggling between studies, work and events. I have my targets to hit; which is being able to maintain my result and also stabilize my hosting career, so i'm starting to host on freelance basis as well fyi i'm still working in 988 cruiser, with even more responsibilities, I was also the Administration Bureau Head for UMANY during campus election last year end. Everything is flooding me, and I was really stressed, preparing for mini concert, campus election, auditions, camp, thesis, I struggled, honestly, I had that one sec thought of not joining Dayao, but i slashed it off immediately. I asked myself, am I satisfied yet? am i willing to let go? was the one in 2014 gonna be the end? But the thought of letting go of Dayao makes my heartache, like pain, slashing off a piece from me. So I told myself, "Persevere no matter what comes in your way, because Dayao is what you love." That was how I make myself here in Dayao 2015.

I have to say, I might look very sociable, but the familiarity in Dayao to me was built between my batchmates, since year 1, and when i knew that most of them are not joining, left only Yu Hong, Seong Jiann and me, I was lost a bit. It takes time to familiarize yourself in a really new environment, true there were some juniors whom i knew, but still, the familiarity disappeared. I was not very confident that it's gonna be as good as ever, just like how juniors were uncertain about Dayao. But I'm so glad, juniors them all have the "dayaoness". Great great! I have to say the Dayao camp was awesome, it was all plain enjoyment and fun, had so much fun making a drama together with my groupmates. Talking about that, I have to mention about the task given to us, to make a production with acting, singing, and dancing, entitled "可爱的Bay Max" (The Cute Bay Max). So, Bay Max is already cute, the way to make it stand out is to completely think out of the box. So.....I had the idea of combining "Journey To The West" (西游记) and "Bay Max". The context was changed completely, and I was the one acting Tang Zeng, the sifu of Sun Wu Kong, that was soooooooo memorable until now after a few months, ppl are still asking me to eat vege. (吃斋, my frequent used words in the drama) With every steps taken, I gain more faith and grow together with the juniors.

The Theme for Dayao this year is "Lost徊", and my song was "那只Bee" (That Bee), I have to say I really don't fancy this song at first because it's not so much of my genre, and I actually hope that I could sing something more rockish or jazzy. I was initially assigned 2 songs, the other one was more like my genre and rockish (全方位的爱), but I had to pull out because my throat condition doesn't allow me to do so. Oh ya, I've been sick for a week before Dayao. I went to doctor twice and doc told me it's Viral Infection, and antibiotics couldn't help any, it has to depend solely on my body immunity, only will recover with nutritious food and good rest. However, it's the busiest week before Dayao, and even though my voice was cracky and bassy, it doesn't sound really bad on performing day, giving a lil special vocal to the Bee Song. I can't really feel the songas the lyrics was quite direct until I changed the whole concept to a drama, with the "Bee" personified as an annoying man/admirer. Thank you to my partner Jun Giap, backup vocalist Gabriel, Pei Ying and Stanley for cooperating with me and making this bee song a special story. Not forgetting the awesome musicians of Band C-Krets, of course. credit later, lemme finish this part first. xD

 bee vocal team.

Jun Giap, my partner, drama siallll.

Let's see my transformation in Dayao from 1st year to 3rd year. From acting as a guy, to a sexy lady and back to a twin pony-tailed happy teen girl. Them tails that I have not ties for more than 10 years, but to make the story even more complete, I tied. I secretly hoping I could act like a goddess (even though I do not look like one), wearing white maxi gown, sitting down there, singing some jazzy melodies.....but I ended up looking like a primary school kid. Yeah, Pattern Queen ma. My goodness, couldn't believe how much it differs from my expectation. *covers my eyes* 

Okayhh, back back back. 
There are a few person I need to thank, first my successor Jacqueline and Alaric: 
I would like to express my heartfelt gratitude to both of you Jacqueline and Alaric, choosing both of you to be my successor was the rightest thing i did. Both of you are really committed and talented, and most importantly both of you cooperated pretty well, good job and well done! Now dayao is finally over, you both can finally have some rest, but it's nt over yet until you find your successor xD remember to discuss about potential junior with me ya, and both of you needa make smart decisions like me . Thank you for being great leaders and being so helpful in helping the junior! I might have stressed you two a bit, pai se la ya. Also, I know there are some choices and sacrifices you need to make, it's ok, i've been in your position, i can understand, after all it's all for the good of dayao, and came out pretty well! so no worries and i believed all the juniors enjoyed themselves and had very much fun! also, make sure the juniors stay ok? the most important thg about dayao is chuan cheng need to pass those spirits and passion to the new batch and make them all fall in love with the stage. Once again thank you and I love you both!!

                                           

Band C-Krets:

Thanks Chen Onn for being such an awesome band leader, really like your way of leading, being strict and fun at the same time. Thought you're a very stubborn person and is hard to communicate with, but chehhhh, yuan lai. You dropped me a bombshell when you did the trailer instavideo for dayao. OMOOOOO. 老安哥摇屁股摇最厉害，吓死我。hahahhaha

Yu Hong, no words for you, coz you never write anythg sentimental for me. HAHAHHA, aiya same la, still as awesome as ever, I like your attitude when playing drums, and thanks for being fierce that our band was never late for practice after the first day. Always like to annoy me lo, but still I really appreciate you one, always gentleman as in taking care of girls la. Aiya, only you will remember im a girl in the end, and really take are of me. Thankkiiiuuu laaaaaa. Next year must join ok, coz we have no more drummers, you needa stay til you found 3. HAHHAHAH.

Pei Ying, good job as a singer manager, and a singer! I noticed you only get crazy when you're comfortable with the environment, like after familiarize with us all. Cannot leh, need to go 38 around ppl you don't know too. They said you're like me so you must be as 38 as I am too, hahhaha. Also, don't pai seh on your showmanship, you rocked the stage that day!

Juniors: 

Pei Ting:

I only get to know you when it's nearing dayao event day. You're good ok? More confidence and please stayyyy.

Tsu Han:

I didn't expected you to be so touched with dayao, I only realized that dayao has so impact to you after reading your post. Since you like it, make sure you stay ah... 

Cowcow: 

Confident a bit neh! You look cool with smile and confidence putting up in your face :D

Yue Xiang:

very cool bassist, very geng jiang le.. must stay for dayao ok? continue rocking the stage! and improve on your photography skills please....

Kai Bin: 

I see potential in you,  and thanks for arranging the bee song, and bu yao blur blur liao. xD my knee still gt blue black..

Wei Chun:

Aiyo, beh tahan u oh. why u so sampat one, hahhaha? lagi 38 than a 3rd year senior. hahha anyway, i like your 38ness, pls stay and make sure the entire dayao 38 with you ok?

Cyrus:

wahhhh, guys who can play saxophones are so cool le ♥ I know you're the band manager for Band Ehlien also, good job and jia you !!

Joanne:

Thanks for helping us even at the last minute. Please come back, I know you ♥ Dayao one. Come back and stay leeee

**If I left out anyone, pls let me know la ya, mentioning mostly only musicians, haha, singers, i'll pass to your HOD. xDDD

Andrew:

I know you're too occupied with too much events, but thanks god in the end you managed to put all the pieces together. Good job !

Zhi Yang:

I admire your musicality!Do stay in dayao and help the juniors ok? :D

Song Han:

AC-ians, continue to hiao and I know you have put in lots of effort. Sometimes, you're better than you thought you are, have some confidence ok?

Jia Quan:

I know you're quite stressed eing the vice president of Dayao and also singer at the same time, but you did really well and did not let me down. Well done !!

Sue Yi:

Dear miss president, thanks for your hardwork and i believed it's all paid off. Please please do chuan cheng properly to your successor ya! 

Multech:

Thanks multech for such an awesome night ! Jia you!

Sceno:

Thanks for your hardwork, we all can see it. It's beautiful !!

Programme:

Thanks for arranging the time well, so we could have a few times of rehearsal, it is very important !

Marketing:

This one really need to give  a big clapppp, damn lots of sponsors ! Good job, 

but next time hor, the makeup and hairdo sponsor cn find better one a? xD

Emcee:

Bu cuo la, ji xu jia you! Can tell you guys really put in lots of effort and thanks for making the audience to have  good laugh :D

Shi Hao:

Thanks for being a good band leader, there are more to learn! jia you!

Band Ehlien:

Sorry guys, not able to perform QFWDA in the end, but still thanks for your guidance and cooperation guys ! :DD

and also thanks Jian Yau for coming, hope you had a great night. I knew you have not been to a uni concert for like ages, hope it has refreshed you.

Done with crediting stuffs, back to my emo part now.

So, I had a good long sleep after Dayao and for the whole day I was happily scrolling fb to see photos that ppl tag me and juniors writing their feelings, enjoying #PDS. I was happy and bubbly until I saw my Band Leader Chen Onn posted his lengthy PDS post, I was laughing and crying at the same time. Suddenly I feel the sadness that hits me, telling me that there will be no more chance to perform in dayao anymore, that's the end. This is my last performance in Dayao ever. It feels so sad and I feel so reluctant to let go. It is something that grows together with you throughout the 3 years in uni. Next Dayao onwards, I will be sitting down the stage together with old birds and watch them juniors performing. I really need some time to get over with this.. I'm just feeling reluctant to leave the stage, I love stage, I love performing.. Ngawwww... I can do nothing, juniors pls let me know if you have any problem, I'll be willing to help, and wishing you all the best.....

we are all VOGUE models.

-- music is to express, not to impress. 

Mother's Day 2014 + Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory

Yes, im writing again, hoho. Am feeling so inspired to write whenever i'm home. Home is a good place to write :p *home is a noble/good place to inculcate good bloggers, teehee* This year i made it back to home to celebrate Mother's Day, finally. Previously, I was too busy with my work and activities, that i missed out almost all important events with family :( Sowiiieeee, Papa, Mama, I'll try my best to come back as frequent as i could. Back to the topic, let's see how i celebrated Mother's Day !

It was actually a very ordinary day with daily routine, woke up and did my assignments for awhile then went out for lunch and to buy movie tickets *a MUST routine for occasions/events* Then we went back and nap for awhile....ikr, i made it sounded boring*the Chu family is very used to take afternoon nap :p* Before going out again, i sneaked out to buy flowers for my mum while she was taking her bath. But too bad, the flower was not ready yt, i was told to come again in awhile more. So by the time we went out, le father used another route to drive to the destination, and my mother was like screaming literally..blahhh, but then she was so overwhelmed when i handled her the lil bouquet of flowers ♥♥ *this might sound really bad, but erm, we weren't educated to be romantic..and flowers...hmm.. they're too romantic xD* however, it feels really good when you see the beautiful smile hanging on her face. And you can actually wrap up a conclusion: "all girls love flowers." Still remember the last time she received a flower from me, was 11 years ago. *shame on me* That was during the 25th anniversary with my papa, and now the 36th anniversary.. Then we had some high-tea session at Secret Recipe before we head for movies. Below are some pictures to share :)

oh so sweet. ♥♥

oh bulb! :/ btw, my hand look so long here.

that bouquet of carnations. 

haha, just ngeh ngeh wanna show my photography skills.

macam improve liao. *everybody knows my photography skills sucks.*

Wokayh, let's get into second chapter. As you can see at the title, " Freudian Psychoanalytic Theory". What was that about? it's more intellectual kind but very interesting to know. And if you wanna know more, click here. I was suddenly very inspired to talk about this after i watched this movie. 

I can tell you it's a very good movie to learn Freudian's Psychoanalytic Theory. So to make it simple, i will explain briefly about this theory. This theory was introduced by Sigmund Freud, and he actually laid out that "personality development underlies the consciousness level". And a few simple things, there are 3 identities ( ID, EGO and SUPEREGO ) that lies among your 3 consciousness level. ( conscious, pre-conscious, and unconscious ) 

In short, ID is buried deep down below your consciousness level, ( unconscious ) and EGO appears at a very conscious state. ID was operated by pleasure principle while EGO was operated by rationality. This is also where conflicts will occur. But, as we can see, we have no strong awareness about the existence of ID because it is buried deep down in the sub-conscious mind. Therefore, in this movie, we can see that Dave ( the main character ) he tried to be rational when he realized that he made mistakes (which he is conscious atm) and he couldn't control himself when the sub-conscious mind was controlling over him and ID took over his SUPEREGO identity ( which was to balance out between ID and EGO ). So, we often see people having conflicts between this. :p 

Just something to share, because this movie explains it so clearly that Dave became a demon without himself realizing about it until the last second. And when he is at the pre-conscious state, he thinks he's wrong, and he punishes himself by slapping belt hard to his body. Some might say he's at a conscious state instead of pre-conscious because pain makes him realize. But the main argument here is that he doesn't even realize that the demon lives in him, which is the ID that lies under his unconscious mind, when he thought is the bad guy(who had died earlier on, and Dave wasn't aware about this) who did all the murders. Having this ID that lives in the unconscious mind is usually caused by childhood trauma, and which exactly it was the trauma that has triggered him after he lived his years of life peacefully. (peacefully, i would say so, because he did no violence to others after this trauma, besides himself, but of course, he is psychologically stressed and burdened) That extreme fear is what that has haunted him for years. 

Well, maybe i sound confusing, basically just sharing what i know, just watch the movie and you'll understand what i'm saying. :)

Well, maybe i'm wrong. Correct me then if i am. I'm always ready to learn. :)

Lastly, selfie of course ! xD

                                                            Side Holland double braid. ♥♥
                                          If you see carefully, you'll see there's a double braid...
                                                                and dark circles. T.T
                                                #doublebraid #sidebraid #hollandbraid #hotd

                                          ootd. Ignore my face, the lighting in the room was bad. 
                                                        Lacey turquoise blue mini dress with belt.
                                          #ootd #lace #turquoiseblue #minidress #girlsbeinggirls



                                      and Happy Mother's Day !! ♥♥

Kbyethx. See you soon. 

HOPEFULLY.

PDS*2

So here it is my PDS post. Finally decided to post this despite knowing that i have tonnes of assignments to do. I'm just feeling motivated to do so, after seeing so many seniors posted about it, ahh, dun wanna lost the feeling i'm feeling right now. It took me 2 semesters of hard work to feel it ok. HAHHAHAH.
Hmm, gonna blog about it starting from the beginning till the end, so if you're not patient enough to read, just scroll through the pictures ok? It's gonna be long, i warn you first, i'm recording my feeling from the first till the end. :p

In case if you don't know, i was being selected as the Singer Head. I've/ We've been preparing for dayao like around 2 sem? A row of meetings, singers audition, mini concert, song selection, dayao camp, workshop, singer selection round 2, singer audition, band practice, singer test all the way until dayao. It's really tiring, no joke, damn stressful, i'm a person who is used to live under stress, ( yes, i am, i have a mutual relationship with stress, we benefit each other. zzz. ) *not being sarcastic seriously* but this time seriously no joke, but it also happens because i got all things crashing together. True la, my bad, nobody asked me to be such a kepochi and join so many stuffs. :(((

So all the burdens are on my shoulder since the day i agreed to accept this post, and it's worse because all of us wanted to make it back to the DTC stage, after being sickly traumatized by PDS last year. Ok, so all of us hold on this and never let it go even we faced so many hardships, from all aspects, management, skills, and relationships. I'm sorry that i'm a very stubborn person and i believed that i have given you all quite a hard time, but trust me, it wasn't done on purpose, i have my own reasons being stubborn. D: and i really wanna thank Yaslyn and Yu Hong for bearing with my bad temper, and though we had some quarrels but at last we were together and fight through the way. Thank you seniors esp Lek Meng, Chun Chyn, and Mi Zheng for always being supportive, giving me proper suggestions and advices, and lastly being brother enough to be my emotional trash bin. Thank you for spending time listening to my crap, i really need somewhere to release all my tension.

Talking about PDS, fyi, it means Post-Dayao Syndrome. in case if you got idea what it is.

It was very different. I felt really glad and relieved the show was a great success but PDS lasted for like less than 2 days?  First day, i was feeling quite empty and was still swimming through the positive feedbacks and memories we had. But the second day, my PDS ended, because it's time for post-mortem, instead of feeling reluctant, i feel more stressful of what i have not done well. Then, i adapted myself to negative comments and details of flaws of the entire performance i open-mindedly accepted the critiques from the seniors. Though still feeling stress about it aftermath, but feeling better after listening to sincere comments, i think i also learn a lot from that.

Seeing juniors still suffering from PDS, their passion and sense of belonging really touched me. I really treasure the moments spent with them; crazy supper, and getting out of the car and shake the butts at the traffic light in the middle of the road? Yes, we did this. xD "Once an Ark-Cloverian, forever an Ark-Cloverian." Heard that Yaslyn named this band after the Noah's Ark, she prayed that she's capable enough to hold them tgt, and yes, Yaslyn, you did that. It was a very amazing band. Juniors are all crazy and mentally attached to the band, and the friendship that is rooted among us shall never fade.

Ok, pichas time ! before i continue mumbling, :p

 ze girls.

 sapo Xin Yi ♥

 Ark-Cloverians ! ♥ hiao enough, and Andrew yoru butt very hiao hor.

 ze Chinese Traditional Dance gang ♥; Kuang Horng, me, Joan, and Jacky. 

Erm, sorry Zhi Yang, i got no idea why your hair is like that xD 

He, the perfect-pitcher. D;

with Jia Quan, stay sweeetttt with Jac. ♥ oh no, it's gonna go viral. hahhaha

*i look petite here, i slimmed own a lot, oops. :p

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 They said junior band ONLY. aiya, but who cares ? i'm junior what. xD

 I was just too hungry at the backstage.

 ♥ that moment.

 28th PBCUM gang ! Thanks for coming to support, finally, it's a complete one. :)

 with Foong Wah ♥ Thank you for helping me with my hairdo at the last min. :')

 Jillian, super cool drummer !

with le girls ! ♥

from the left: Zi Qi, Yaslyn, Yao Zhi, me, Kai Shin, Mei Zi, Violette, Khe Sin, and Jillian.

 ♥ my roomie ! Thank you Kimberly for everything :) ♥♥♥

with Sunday Girls, i just don't know why Soh Chun Chyn wanna photobomb. 

soh dek ma????? xD

 with Cheng Hooi, le dayao president. fuiyooohhhh

 muh kai pa, Kuang Horng la.

 Raee !!! always the crazy one, bluffed me that he was a Chi-Thai mix for 2 years. zzz

 Yaslyn, the music director a.k.a. the ironic girl. ♥

 oh with Dancer head, Yern Yee, good job, the dance moves were cool ! can i be a dancer next year ? :p

 my ootd ! ♥ loving the Maroon Red Bustier dress so much, just bought it 2 days before dayao.

 with Jared, partner of the day. Glad that i had a chance to duet with you. and stay sweeeet with your girl !♥

 with muh ex-bandmate ! Band Y ! with medic seniors, who went to Klang and cant join us this year :((

from left: Sher Lin, Leong Hooi, Joan, me, Xin Ni, Sue Sien, Moh Theng, Shun Herng.

 with Karen ! the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! ♥

Caryn, the sar-cas-tic-ma-ian ! ♥

with Jason, my "lao-sai" mate. ( pronounce it in Indon-slang cantonese, hahah ) 

 with Chu Ting, cute emcee. 

 with Jovian. eh macam ok worh this pic. xD

with my brother, Soh Chun Chyn ! ♥ He's gonna kill me for the love, hahah. ok, i got nothing with him.

anybody who is interested in him cn get his number from me. Damn yeng le. xDDD

can't get enough of Ark Clover ahhhhh.

our cover photo. Teehee. ♥♥
from the left: Luke, Pei Ling, Andrew( carrot milk babies ), Moh Theng, me, Hui San, Lek Meng, Jun Giap, Yaslyn, Song Han, Shi Hao, Jared, Mark Koh, Ke Sin( november babies ), Rou Jing and Ding Hang.

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Also thanks to Dayao, i had the chance to do more live band performance and each of the opportunity gained me precious experience. I can see myself growing through each performing experience and of course through dayao. I'm a tougher and a stronger person now, all the tears have been shed worth it. Thank you everyone who came and supported me. I really appreciate your effort. :) and not forgeting to thank the crews behind the scene, multech and scenography dept have done very good job ! and thank you to Risyn ,Michelle and Kenny for making sure the programme flow runs smooth, Jinq Wen and Chun Wei for getting so many sponsors and thank you Yin Han for being so efficient at administrating, glad that i have known all of you. Sorry that could not write down your name one by one, but you know i thank you deep down from the heart. :)

Juniors, jia you for dayao 2015!

DAYAO ROCKS. SEE YOU 2015. ♥